Back in school baby! Ahhhhhhhhhhh the cozy warmth of a routine with a purpose and human interaction. That intoxicating new school year smell. The new art supplies!!!!!!!!!! Yes, my senior year has begun.
School is always a welcomed distraction from my head. When the demons start yapping, it helps me to talk about how mean they are to me, perhaps because I end up not feeling so alone when it happens. I need to let it all out sometimes in order to get myself to realize how I’m only letting them win, that the way my brain is working is not healthy so I simply must push forward. Depression lies and Anxiety/ Panic in turn spins those lies. I don’t tend to get too bogged down in tearing myself to shreds when I’ve got work to do however. Somehow my brain is able to turn that racket down when I’ve got a deadline of sorts to take care of. *shrugs* Brains are strange places, with tons of brightly colored whirly rides that can make one laugh, cry, scream, or vomit out cotton candy. Talking about things out loud honestly does help. Takes the power away from the darkness,…… at least it does for me anyway.
Well, back to business! I suppose I should share something I recently made as a starting point. I have a pair of saddle shoes but they aren’t particularly comfortable to wear. They’re simple to make as I found how to do this on the Holy Scriptures of Pintrest. Basically, you grab a pair of white tennis shoes, black fabric paint (I used a fabric paint marker set, but I’d recommend using the paint instead), and a photo of what the shoes look like. It took a few hours to do it in as I wanted the black to be really solid, so I went over it a few times. Left them to dry for a day and viola! Comfy saddle shoes! Here’s how they turned out:
See?! Super cute! My therapist today told me I should consider making a few more pairs in different colors which I might do later on. In the meantime, I’ve got another pair of comfy shoes that are freaking awesomesauce to go with some of my rockabilly clothes. Oh, Holy Scripture of Pintrest…………how I worship you so! Can I get an Amen?!!